#kit's diary 1 🖊

[v-tired-queer]

After years of thinking about it and having yet another seizure on public transportation this morning, I've made up my mind and am gonna get a service dog! My doctors have all already agreed that this would be a good course of action for me. I'm nervous and excited as I'm owner-training, but I have local dog trainers I'm going to reach out to who have experience with training service dogs.

I don't currently plan on using a breeder, since my local animal shelter has a couple of dogs who I think would be good fits! Their different personalities, temperament, willingness to learn, ect are all posted on the website, so I've been able to look and see what dogs I want to meet before going in. Plus, my shelter also has information on service dog training and resources for people in our area.

I have an appointment with SSI coming up on July 20th to apply for benefits, and I'm praying that they approve my application on the first go so I don't have to lawyer up. My seizures are just getting in the way too much for me to maintain a job. I've known that for years, hence why I keep switching jobs in hopes of finding something that will work for me. I just felt like if I applied for SSI then I would be "throwing in the towel". It almost felt like I was giving up on myself. But the more I go on, the more I realize that sometimes the best thing to do is take a step back. I'm not mooching off of anyone. I'm still going to go to college. I'm still taking steps to better my life while living with a disability. Working right now just isn't feasible for me (why yes, I am still convincing myself of all of this, how did you know? It's a back and forth game over guilt, honestly).

Since adoption fees are affordable, I should, in theory, be able to adopt with in the first couple of SSI payments after I get approved.

Here's hoping that it all goes well!! 🙏🦮🍀✨️